Friday, February 29, 2008

Getting Bigger... Everyday!

Ok, So I realize we are really bad parents for putting Zenock in a "forward facing carseat." BUT, to justify it... he is twenty pounds and is only a month away from being ONE! Besides, how could you not want to just sit and watch this cute kid.... yes, kid. JC and I have always referred to Zenock as "Our Baby," but it seems like in the last couple of weeks he has gotten so big and is learning so much! I already miss Baby Zenock, but I am loving this little guy! He is so much fun!

When we put him in his carseat for the first time, he just smiled and laughed the whole time we were in the car. He was so excited! Actually, he does it everytime we go anywhere now. He loves his new carseat.


He has such a contagious laugh.... He laughs at everything. As much as he puts on shows for us, we put on shows for him to get him to laugh. (If only the camera would take photos of us too. :)

He loves to play and plays so well by himself!


He is getting SO smart! He loves his daddy so much and follows him everywhere. Whenever JC is getting ready, Zenock will go and sit or standy by the door and hit on it until JC will let him in. Being such a smart kid can also get you into trouble! Whenever we get mad at Zenock and tell him no, he will either look back at us and just laugh or he will crawl over and stand up to us and put his head on our shoulder and give us a hug. He even pats us on the back. IT is too Cute and we can't stay upset for long. He is such a little ball of energy and is going 90 miles all the time. As soon as he wakes up at 6:30 AM, he is ready to play! If it would ever STOP raining down here, maybe we could go outside and have some real fun! I have a feeling this is only the start...

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

lOvE Tag

I have seen this on other blogs and have loved the stories.... So here is ours.

How did you meet your LoVe ? Answer all the questions HONESTLY . . . .
1. Where did you meet? Through his sister Kami. She Is and was one of my best friends. :)

2. What was the first thought that went through your head when you met? We met a couple of times before, but the first time we actually talked we were having "lawn chair night" at Kami's and they were babysitting his little cousin Jaxson and I remember thinking how cute he was playing with him and that one day he would be a cute dad.... (not thinking that one day he might be my childs dad.)

3. Do you remember what she/he was wearing? Yes... I think... It's been almost FIVE years! But I believe it was a gray & red striped polo shirt and jean shorts.

4. Where was the first time you kissed this person? At my back door.

5. How did he/she ask you out? He had to steal my number from Kami's phone in the middle of the night. He started texting me the next day and told me we should hang out. (I pretended I didn't know who he was. HA!)

6. Where did you go for your first date? I honestly don't remember... We started dating the first of June and he challenged me to hang out with him every day for the rest of the summer until I went back to St George for school. We spent everyday but one together. So many memories are packed into that Summer. I'm not sure which one we would actually call our first date.... Buzz Games, Hawaiin Charades & Game cube volleyball parties, The Cabin at Lava, Drive Ins, etc. We did something every night, but it was usually with a group.

7. How long did you know this person before you became a couple? That one again is hard to say.... We both say different. We finally had the "talk" about a week before I left for school.

8. Has this person ever proposed to you? Yes! On Christmas Eve.

9. Do you and this person have kids together? One little boy who has us wrapped around his finger.

10. Have you ever broken the law with this person? Does speeding count?

11. When was the first time you realized that you liked this person? After about two days of having intense conversation's through text messaging while we were at work. (I still owe my mom $300 for a phone bill... sorry mom.)

12. Do you get along with any of the ex's of your partner? Some of them are really good friends... and then their are some I've never met and I'm not sure how I would react if I did. :)

13. Do you trust this person? Absolutely.

14. Do you see your partner in your future? Yes.

15. Whats the most expensive thing this person has given you? A Baby.... (Over $25,000 dollars in hospital bills just for him. Thank goodness for insurance! He sure is worth every penny!)

16. What is one thing he/she does that gets on your nerves. He always knows when something is bothering me and will make me sit down and talk about it or bug me until I tell him.

17. What is the thing you do that gets on his/her nerves? That I keep things to myself or when I go shopping and spend money without telling him. :)

18. Where do you see each other in 15 years from now? Loving life... with a few more kids.

I would love to hear your story!

Friday, February 22, 2008

Life Goes On...

I am not a very public person and I really don't like to share personal experiences. But.. here it goes. My thought is maybe that my thoughts will be of help to someone else one day. We hadn't planned on telling anyone that I was pregnant until the end of February, but because we needed to tell our parents for certain reasons and before they could tell all of our friends... we needed to say something. (We wanted to be the ones to share the news.) I had my first doctors appointment on Tuesday and the bad news came back that the baby didn't have a heart beat and there wasn't any blood flow. Shock pretty much took over. My doctor told me that the baby was big enough that I wouldn't be able to miscarry on my own and so I needed to have a D & C surgery. I had the surgery yesterday and everything went really well. I am feeling good, just a little sore. I guess I am not sure exactly how I am supposed to be feeling. There are so many emotions. Getting pregnant in the first place was a total shock and to be honest I wasn't sick at all that at times I wondered if I really was pregnant. I have to wonder if it was Heavenly Fathers way of preparing me. I can honestly say that I just feel so lucky and blessed to be a mom already and to have my sweet baby Zenock. I know so many people that haven't been able to have children, that I would feel extremely guilty for even questioning my Heavenly Father as to why this would happen. I don't even have that thought. I am lucky to be a mom and to have a baby. That is how I felt for the most part the last few days... but then yesterday a new thought came to me. One that I was totally unprepared for. That is that I have so much love for Zenock and that every child deserves to be loved like he is. I want to be able to give that love and share it with more children. I am so excited to have more children and to continue to be a mom and to raise Zenock. It is the only job I have ever wanted. Everyday is so much fun and I learn so much from him. I can't express my gratitude for my Heavenly Father and all that he has blessed me with. I can't question him for things that happen, because I know it is all part of the plan he has for me and with out these trials in our lives, how can we grow? It has only been three days since I found out, but already I feel like I have grown closer to my little family through all of it. I have the sweetest husband and the best little boy in the world. I have been so spoiled and feel blessed to have the friends and family that I do (near and far). I have had so many phone calls and visits from people who care. (Thank You! It means so much!) So, as for things.... Life Goes On... I'll never forget my experience and I know my Heavenly Father will make it up to me in his own way and his own time. He is aware of me and how I feel. I can't really say much more than that. I really do appreciate all the concerns, prayers, and everything that you have done. It means a lot to our family.
In the meantime... just a couple of stories to make the day brighter.... I have the funniest boy ever. We love him so much! We were at our friends house on Sunday eating the best Cambodian (did I spell that right?) dinner ever! (Thanks Maria!) We were eating dessert and Zenock kept trying to pull my plate down. I kept moving it higher trying to continue my conversation. He finally pulled it down low enough and scraped the whole top of the chocolate peanut butter bar off with his fingers and stuffed them in his mouth, and started to laugh and smile. It all happened so fast that I couldn't stop laughing. It was the funniest thing I have ever seen. He knew exactly what he was trying to do. His next thing that he has been doing lately is not sleeping. I have always rocked him to sleep, but lately it has been getting more difficult to do so. He knows that if he won't go to sleep we will just put him in his crib. So as we walk into his room to put him down he puts his arms around our necks and puts his head on our shoulder and squeezes... that is uaually all it takes and I will give in and take him back out and rock him. I wonder how long until he realizes just how much he has got us wrapped around his little finger.

Friday, February 15, 2008

A day or two or maybe a week or more...

My blog has been really lacking lately... I really think other people have more time in their day than I do. Anyhow... here are some pictures from the last couple of weeks or so and a quick catch up of what's going on.
Happy Valentine's Day!
I had the sweetest little Valentine all day long. Zenock was in such a good mood, it was like he new it was a holiday. JC took Zenock and I out to eat at the Olive Garden. I love spending time with my boys. Would you believe that I have only had a babysitter once since we moved here. I have a really hard time leaving my baby with somebody else. I feel like he is my responsibility and I should be with him. Even when I run to the store and have JC watch him (as nice as it is), I always feel SO guilty. I just love him so much and it seems like they grow sO fast that I wouldn't want it any other way. I want to be there for every moment.

Zenock got this cute new lion a couple of weeks ago to help him learn how to walk... or ride. He loves it and is doing so well. It is only a matter of time until my baby will be walking!

Zenock is into everything! Needless to say we had to find somewhere else for the garbage.

He loves to play!

I honestly don't remember taking this picture, but I thought it was so funny. Zenock fits his Birthday, (April Fool's). He has such a sense of humor and is always trying to make us laugh.

He has also decided that it is time that he feed himself the bottle. I have totally avoided this, because it is the only time he will cuddle, but the last couple of days he will only let me feed him half and then he wants to do it. He still lets me feed him at night, since most of the time he is pretty much out of it by the time the bottle's gone... so I can still get my cuddle time.
After a month of waking up 4-5 times during the night, Zenock is finally sleeping through the night again. I'm still not sure what it was, but since we got home from Christmas he would just wake up screaming. It finally got to the point where we would pick him up and cuddle him and as soon as we would lay him back down he would wake right up and start all over. So after a couple of nights of letting him scream for over an hour and a half and after letting him lose his voice from all the screaming, I think he has decided it's easier to just sleep! I'm not sure if he was just preparing me for things to come, but it sure is nice to sleep again!

Everything is bigger in Texas... or Arkansas. Even the rainstorms, which we have SO many of! I never thought it rained this much down here! Sunday we had the best weather and spent most of our day outside.. It was so nice that we even all wore shorts! I think it was that night that we awoke to the biggest loudest thunder I have ever heard in my life! As well as TONS of rain! And when it rains... it pours. You've never seen it rain until you have been to Texas!

Ok... well, I am almost done, but I have had so many people ask when and why we are moving. So here is our explanation. (Which is somewhat complicated.) JC is part of a program through the government called AMC Fellows. The first year you just go to school and they pay you to get your master's degree. (It is a five year program.) The next four years are somewhat of a rotational training. We will probably move a couple of times in the next four years. We are only in Texarkana until the end of August when JC will graduate. We are thinking that most likely we will end up in NEW JERSEY, but some of the other places we could go are: Washington DC, Alabama, Colorado, or pretty much anywhere. The program trains you to basically become Management through the goverment. When we first heard of the job, it really sounded too good to be true. It takes most people an entire lifetime of working to get to where JC will be in five years. Out of 2500 applicants last year, JC was one of 100 people chosen for the program. We honestly feel SO extremely lucky and blessed to be where we are and to have this opportunity. This year they have already had double the applicants than last year and they don't quit taking applicants until May or June. JC has really enjoyed the program. If anyone ever has the opportunity... take it. For those of you who are going to school at USU check out the program at the job/career fair. They really look for engineers and they really like the LDS guys. (They have great work ethic and are honest.) It gives you a great edge if you apply for the program. (Don't let the number of applicants discourage you.) If you really are interested in the program and want more information, I'm sure JC would love to give it to you. So just let us know. We are really excited for what the next few years will bring and the adventures we will begin. We will find out in APRIL where we will be moving to in August. We are SO EXCITED!

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Maybe I Should Explain...

Well... The secret is out. News travels fast, (especially in Utah!) I am pregnant! We couldn't be more excited. It is a total shock and wasn't really planned, but we really are excited for SO many reasons. We feel so blessed to be able to have another child and to give Zenock a sibling and a buddy. Our little family will be a family of FOUR come the end of September.... (here's hoping this one won't be as anxious to get here as Zenock was. We are moving the last week of August!) JC and I both had feelings that we needed to have another baby right away, but I honestly think I was scared what might happen. I guess this is Heavenly Fathers way of calming any unsurety I may have had. He knows when the time is right and I trust him completely. I didn't get sick with Zenock and I haven't been sick this time for the most part... just extremely tired. Now, I just have to figure out how I am going to make it through the Summer down here with the humidity! Hello air conditioning and swimming pool!

Friday, February 1, 2008

We LoVe Baseball!

Since we are out in the middle of "NO Where" where good photographers don't exist. I thought I would try our own little photography session the other day. Zenock did such a good job. JC and his dad are huge Dodger fans... so of course, Zenock and I have become fans as well. Here are a few of my favorites. (There are a lot.)
(Don't judge my pictures too harshly... I REALLY need a new camera.)
This one is JC's favorite.
Just chillin'
SO Innocent... :)
He is definately ready for the major league... haha.
How much more cute can he get?

I honestly didn't pose this one... I think it is my favorite though.
I think after blinding him with all the flashes... he was ready to be done.

Our Prophet

JC and I were both so sad to hear that President Hinckley had passed away. He has been "Our" Prophet. What a truly amazing man he was. We have such a deep love and respect for him. I can only imagine the joy and celebration he received on the other side. This past week, I have loved reading stories about him and watching all of the tributes to and for him. If you haven't seen these... they are definately worth watching.
This one is from Glenn Beck. For those of you who don't know much about him. He is a convert and his story is one of those that is truly inspiring. Look it up if you have a moment. JC and I watched this on tv the other night and it was then that it hit both of us... grab your tissues.
Friends of ours had this one posted on their blog and I thought how perfect it was. I'm an emotional person already, but I cried the whole way through it. It is awesome!

The Little Things...

Zenock is TEN months today! Time seriously flies! Another month already... Every day he is learning and growing so much. I want to cry, because he is growing up too fast and then I want to beam with pride that he learned how to do something so BIG. I guess that is just the way it goes. He is SO close to standing on his own and will stand by himself for a few seconds before he falls. We are constantly making sure the bathroom doors are closed... If he sees a door open, he will crawl as fast as he can into the bathroom and stand up to the tub and pound on it. He is starting to listen to us when we say NO and absolutely loves when we chase him around the house. He is starting to understand so many things that we say... like when we are changing him and we say raise your arms... he does! It is SO darn cute. I can't believe how smart babies are! They learn so fast. I can never look at another baby/child again and think, "They don't know." They really are so smart and have such cute personalities even at such a young age. I am always amazed at what Zenock does and I spend half my day just watching him play and crawl, wondering what is going on in his little head. We sure love this kid! He has such a sense of humor and is always trying to make us laugh. He loves to play peek-a-boo... popping up and down from the couch. He has the most contagious laugh and smile. He loves to have yelling matches with his daddy... (video coming soon.) He jabbers constantly. He loves friends and is TOO friendly at times, always giving them hugs. JC and I keep saying we don't want him to get bigger, but each stage gets better than the last. We could have TEN more just like him.